I WiSh YoU UnDeRStaND....

Dear God,

I hope i wil be directed to the right path. I don't want to lie here but i really know i love him a lot. I am scared that he will betray me once again because of everything i saw in the mails he describe me nothing but a very bad girl that he fallen for. From the way he talk i really can feel that i doesn't worth even a cent for him. I really never know did he ever love me before. I am real scared to think about that. I really want to be someone best girlfriend ever. I regret i never really behave till everytime i have to ended this dreadful way. I am real sad of thins happening as i really love him a lot. Does he really play on me. There isn't that easy to forget him and yet he keep giving me hints that he will never want me to control him having girls around. He should know how much i suffer during my childhood. May be he really doesn't love me as much. I really want to make it an over thinking that he never can be faithful. My heart really broken on what he have done. May be i deserve it on what i have done. Both of us cheated on each others feelings. I really not sure but i knew it would be my lost. I think he will able to get rid of me as i am nothing but a jerk to him. I really hope i am not dreaming when he willing to tell me he loves me...When he bring me to all sorts of place spending one me... When he willing to call me baby dear....Those moment i swear i will appreciate that. On what so ever circumstances i swear to god that i never once said badly about him to anyone. I didn't take his feelings to play as i really want a relationship that last forever. I am really in a mess now. Hope i can have a direction. Do my heart really have chance to be mend....

-Broken Hearted GaL-