I am Very Happy Those Time......

Letter To Me From You

I respect you in the way that you are my only one
If not for nothing
I will not message any gals
I just feel once I’m in relationship
I just be like what a boyfriend should do
Stop myself getting involve with so many girls friends
I really wan to make u feel secure
I dun wan u to think that anytime
I will run off with another gal
I’m trying hard not to think of Alvin
I promised to u promised to myself
Never to think of Alvin
just assume him as your close friend
I still remember that promise
U know whatI really hate fighting because of him anymore
Why we must be fighting because of him
I’m scared one day either me or him will be out from your life
U always thinking that I dun care Dear
My heart is hurting most the time
When u said u not happy
I also not happy either
I don’t know why we still can hold on
When most the couple already separated
I believe eventually there will be a day to come
That we will be understand each other fully
I cant imagine if now I cannot stand on Alvin
When come to working life it will become even worse
Dear one thing for sure
Even if I look like a donkey to anyone
That seems can be bullied around
I will not give up on our relationship
Our relationship is the special thing that have ever occurred
And breaking up will never be my mind
My mistake I never take care of you feeling
I'm found guilty for all this
Sorry seems not the best word anymore
If there is a word better than sorry
I will be telling you few thousands time
Begging for you forgiveness Dear
If only we can be back to last time
Of how happy we were
I'm willing to do anything for you
For our relationship will be my number one
Love you

I WiSh YoU UnDeRStaND....

Dear God,

I hope i wil be directed to the right path. I don't want to lie here but i really know i love him a lot. I am scared that he will betray me once again because of everything i saw in the mails he describe me nothing but a very bad girl that he fallen for. From the way he talk i really can feel that i doesn't worth even a cent for him. I really never know did he ever love me before. I am real scared to think about that. I really want to be someone best girlfriend ever. I regret i never really behave till everytime i have to ended this dreadful way. I am real sad of thins happening as i really love him a lot. Does he really play on me. There isn't that easy to forget him and yet he keep giving me hints that he will never want me to control him having girls around. He should know how much i suffer during my childhood. May be he really doesn't love me as much. I really want to make it an over thinking that he never can be faithful. My heart really broken on what he have done. May be i deserve it on what i have done. Both of us cheated on each others feelings. I really not sure but i knew it would be my lost. I think he will able to get rid of me as i am nothing but a jerk to him. I really hope i am not dreaming when he willing to tell me he loves me...When he bring me to all sorts of place spending one me... When he willing to call me baby dear....Those moment i swear i will appreciate that. On what so ever circumstances i swear to god that i never once said badly about him to anyone. I didn't take his feelings to play as i really want a relationship that last forever. I am really in a mess now. Hope i can have a direction. Do my heart really have chance to be mend....

-Broken Hearted GaL-

PicTuRe Of A ThOusaNd WoRds....

Heart Broken....

Is it really i have to love a new you...
I never love you as who you are today...
The one i love was not like that at all...
I knew love was not like that at all...
For at least...i really do know you did love me before...
The feelings i will never forget...
And i knew...i will not be able to get it back...

I am just a waste dumped by you....
You pick it back...
Put it in the corner...
Without thinking of how useful i am to you once before...
I will be just a dust soon....

Is raining today....

Wish you drive safely home tonite...
Working late again as usual...
Surely you are very tired by now...
Love you ....

Nothing special about today...
I received a small cute photo frame from my colleague...
She is the one who accompany me through out this 6 month in the company...
Gossiping... chatting...
A very simple girl who come from a simple family...

Two days more for me to work in the company....
After that i will be free for a period of time...
Hope having more time with you...
But surely you will be busy...

Small hammer sleep with me everyday now...
Named it as 'ham ham' ok?