A Shine For Me on A Gloomy Day..

For some reason i am thinking about my past again...feel uncomfortable over it. I still can't figured it out what have you told the others making them still continue to contact you without caring what ever about them that make still contacting you no matter what. Sometimes i think you are lying...sometimes i think you are not truthful...but i just don't know how to figure it out. 

Sometimes i am afraid this dream will awake soon...

~heartache~

Showering my thoughts...

After 4 years of doing assignments together in group this is the first time i am so angry and pissed off by my coursemate. I am just pissed off i doesn't know how to describe it. But can you imagine that when everybody is talking about ICT and technology someone still prefer to use verbal talk and writing! Complaining that we are using the email to communicate. Oh my god! God, please save me from getting heart attack! Not enough with that, when group member initiate to divide jobs and start working then there comes again complain complain and complain. Complained that her part was too hard for her to do, complained that job was not suppose to be divided that way. Ok fine! So we just do it her way. We take a step backward and try to please her thinking that all she wants was just for the sake of the group. Fine fine! But what is the outcome! She copied nearly the whole book and paste it inside. When i said copy paste i mean it! No editing just merely few cuts of line and thats it. That is so call an assignment! That is how her assignment done in this 4 years period? I never know because this is the first and the last time i will work with her. Not enough with that she have her two version of files. Ask us to choose for her but the fact is both are from different user creating the files. One from M.Words 2007 and the other from M.Words 2003. Do not tell me that she take whole trouble to save one file in 2007 and 2003. I don't believe it at all. I never accused her for just a little things she did. But this time she send her slides and did the same things! And i am darn curious to find it out on what is happening! At last, i finally realized that one of the file are from a user and another from a different user! Which means all this while not her who did the job. There is some one else! How shameful, 4 years of studying and this is the outcome. Never to blame her or the one who do for her. I just feel sometimes when i am in the same group with my bf i didn't take such advantage on him before didn't i? There is limit in helping isn't that so? Even when the worst things happen to my family life still have to go on and i still have to strive for my future. Isn't that so?? I am just so pissed off with people around lately. I am not sure why. But i believe there is still true people out there...

And recently i read a blog somewhere, saying that in a life we will meet 4 kind of love which is the one we love, the one who loves us and the one who we love and love us at the same time or the one who came in the right time. But the blogger said that those 4 are of different people. Is that really true? Each time involve in relationship i felt that i grew older. I never agreed on what he said. I feel that the 4 kind of love is a proccess. The first. Indeed not everybody will be the first love to the anybody. But to a person we love, we will need him to love us to be together and therefore the last one which is loving each other will finally happen. Isn't that so? Relationship let us grow older but it needs a lot of sacrificies too. Not everyone can bare on that. Be it friends, time , money, and many more. wonder true friends really exist? After the fire incident, only i realize those true friends are really too less for me to count. May be i don't deserve to be care? Or may be they really never will care. For my believe i would like to meet someone whom i love who loves me much. I always have that in mind... Today i found it, i have to grab him tight, never to let him go far again. For that we don't know what might happen tomorrow. 

Cherish each morning you have, for it will not be the same again tomorrow- Kelly, 26.3.09

25th March 2009

My house got burned today...

I am speechless...

But i am glad... my family are all safe...

I never thought such things will happen....

Tired..

Book of My day...

This book is definately not an ordinary book. At least my dear claimed that it was the ONLY one that accompanied him when he was without his computer for the two days past. Sigh...i am considered invisible then. *pity pity* 

While today dear took it to uni to share with me the laughter that this book brought to him last night. Muahaha...very funny indeed.. Imagine..sun wukong make his magic wane to become very long for people to envy him and he make it to become very very small just for ppl to envy him. But the fact is that, it is too small until he himself could not find it anywhere. Hahaha.. I know i know...I am a bad story teller..perhaps you should get a copy and read it. Then i bet you will laugh together with me. 

Kind of tired today but am trying to be awake. Too much assignment to be done. Too many work to be settle. Still need to go for swimming practice tonight. Hopefully i am able to swim at the life saving workshop tomorrow. *cross finger*

Dear, i might not be as perfect as u wish but i just hope we will go through everything together. Everyday i am reminding myself so. May we be bless.

A meaningful outing...

Forgotten when were the last time i caught with a fever. Each of those time dear will treat me like real princess...I mean it...REAL PRINCESS... Even dear told me i am too pampered by him. Not so sure what is the reason i got visited by Mr.Fever again this time. But juust after one day from recovery i went to play bowling with my siblings. YES! BOWLING! I think it will 'sweat' lots of people if they know i went to play bowling today. But the best part was to have two new thingy today(PICTURE). Satisfied with what i have achieved today. Thanks dear for everything you had done this whole tiring week. Jub jub. 

How to Make a ME!

INGREDIENTS:

1 part of friendliness

5 parts of brilliance

3 parts of joy

METHODS:

Layer ingredients in a shot glass. Top it off with a sprinkle of wisdom and joy!

p/s: Do search for your own receipy on how to make yourself at PERSONALITY COCKTAIL

Enjoy!!

Happy Valentine Day Dear...

Lovers Concerto -

How gentle is the rain that falls softly on the meadow

Birds high up in the trees serenade the clouds with their melodies

Oh, see there beyond the hill, the bright colours of the rainbow.

Some magic from above made this day for us just to fall in love

Now I belong to you from this day until forever,

Just love me tenderly and I'll give to you every part of me.

Oh, don't ever make me cry through long lonely nights without love.

Be always true to me, keep this day in your heart eternally.

Some day we shall return to this place upon the meadow.

We'll walk out in the rain, see the birds above singing once again.

Oh, you hold me in your arms, and say once again you love me,

And if your love is true, everything will be just as wonderful.

You'll hold me in your arms, and say once again you love me,

And if your love is true, everything will be just as wonderful.

I LOVE YOU